heartaches

I hate heartaches.  My heart aches right now.  My soul aches right now.  I want to scream and yell and throw a fit. You know that gut feeling that tells you when something is awry?  I've had that gut feeling for the last several weeks now.  The signs are pointing toward a new truth, and I know what I know.  The sad thing is, it is out of my control.  Maybe that's the hard part ~ not having control.  Not that I want to be the top dog, the call-all-the-shots, you-don't-have-a-say-so kind of person.  I'm a person who likes to discuss issues before they become bigger, unmanageable, non-negotiable issues.  I want to at least have a hand in something that includes me.  Not now.  Not gonna happen.